My new year's resolution is to slow the fuck down. I like to be busy all the time. It makes me feel like I'm a useful member of society, my family, my community, etc. But honestly I need to learn to slow down. When I was a little girl my dad valued hard work and somehow I equated that with busyness. What I have realized in my old age is that busyness often equals missing out. Missing out on my son laughing, my daughter playing basketball, my husband holding my hand, my mom needing comfort. These are the things that life is made of. These are the moments that I will treasure when I am old. These are the moments that make life worth living. I have spent my entire life striving to "prove" myself.. to whom?? My dad? Myself? The world? Damn. What a waste.
Starting today I am slowing down. I resigned my teaching position at AB Tech so I can focus on my doctorate, our family business, and my family. These are the things I value and in them I will place my time and energy. Join me.